I have no idea anymore.

So right now Im wide awake and it 4:01 am. I don't know what's wrong with me, I like sleep all day long and then randomly wake up and am WIDE awake. This has been happening all break and Im really dreading going back to school, wanting to fall asleep in the middle of class. Plus, Im not ready for the stress. This break has been so great, seeing old friends and family. And I really dont want to give it up. I dont want to give up my late 6 hour long conversations with my boyfriend about how ugly our kids would be if we had any or about how dreams are really amazing things. I dont want to give up crazy sleepovers which end up in a makeup fight which is posted up all over myspace. I dont want to give up sleeping in all day just because I can. Meeting guys and sneaking out at 2 in the morning. Playing Super Smash Bros all night. Laying on my friends trampoline freezing to death because its the end of December but not caring because the stars outside are so beautiful itd be a sin to not stay and watch them. Im not ready for my real life to start again. Im not ready to have my real life take over and start acting like I care about where I go in life. Im not ready for growing up. I feel like thats crazy but Im really not.