Today

Was a good/bad day. School was pretty good it was just a normal day really. Nothing went wrong and I felt happy you know like there's nothing for me to be sad or mad about. But then I talked to my mom and I guess I may have to move in with my sister. Im really scared I don't want to leave my mom. Just when we were getting really close and even though its been hard we've over come so many things together. I cant leave her now I need her. This really is not helping me out with concentrate on finals!

I need to find a brain.

Have you ever been put in a situation where you know you shouldn't do something and you don't even want to, but you do it anyways? You don't think about the consequences you just do it? I always wonder why I do this. I do it a lot of them time. I just don't think. And it gets me in a lot of trouble! So yeah Im pretty much grounded and Im nervous to talk to my mom about last night..

FINALS

Okay am I the only one that is freaking out about finals?! They sound like there going to be extremley hard and Im really scared now. I feel like Ive learned like nothing this year. When my teachers were going over what kind of thing was going to be on the tests it just made me more and more nervous and anxious. Gah :( Im going to stop this blog and go study!

Christmas in The Park!

Christmas in the Park was actually a lot of fun! But kind of creepy at the same time. The little doll setup are weird..like the mechanical thingys, I dont know but it was so much more fun than I remember it. Maybe it was just because of who I was with! :)

The Moderate White

Im really confused about which I think Atticus is, a moderate white or someone who is willing to fight for justice. Im pretty sure that he falls into the second category. But I really cant decide because he is portrayed as a man who stands back and watches, but I think there's more to him than that. He fought for Tom Robinson full heartedly and I think if he was a person that waited for change, he wouldn't have tried to protect him so much. This assignments also makes me wonder what am. I would like to think of myself as someone that would have stood up for someone whom was being treated badly as I usually do, but something so scary as being thrown in jail and tortured, I wonder what I would do. If I could have the strength to stand up for justice.

Love Hate Relationship

Right now Im at home laying in my nice warm bed listen to music, NOT at school. I just woke up and I feel sooo rested now. Last night I was feeling so stressed and overwhelmed my mom told me to stay home. So I did and catching up on sleep is really nice. But at the same time its not. Im kind of freaking out about missing school. I mean I know its only a day but in a day you miss a lot. Last year I was absent like every other week and my grades dropped substantially because of it. Plus tonight I need to stay here with my family and they've been irritating me and its hard being in the same room with them right now.