Its Funny

I think its funny how you can be able to erase someone from your life just like that. You cant throw away pictures or put away clothes they gave you and its like they were never there. Like they were never a huge part of your life or anything. Like they werent even there. How you can put of this mask and no one even know, you know? You can even pretend that you never knew them. But deep down, it hurts that they aren't there. You never can get over it. But is making them come back into your life really what you want? I don't know the answer Im just kind of babbling right now

Halloweenn

Its almost Halloween and I STILL dont have a costume! I think I know what Im going to be but now Im not so sure. So I need to decide on that. And then once I decided I need to go find what Im going to wear. Mann this year is going by so fast, I didnt even realize October's already almost over. It felt like it just started!

Great America

On Saturday, Emily and I went to Great America for that Halloween show thing. It was so scary I had no idea that it was going to be that frightening! We went in this one maze with a group of people we didnt know, thinking that it wouldnt be that scary but man we were wrong! During the middle of it a guy in the group we went it with had to walk behind us because the zombies kept chasing Emily and I. And then once we were out of the maze walking around the park, creatures were like attracted to us or something because whenever we turned around one would be like and inch away from us banging on things! I dont think Ive ever been that scared in my whole life!

BFF

Have you ever noticed that your best of friends, or just people you feel most comfortable around and connect with the most are the ones that are the least like you? And when your around someone thats like you, you get so bored with them or irritated with them? Which is kind of sad, maybe Im the only one that feels like that, but does that mean I dont like myself? Well anyways, I just realized that the old saying "opposites attract" is very accurate.

To Kill A Mockingbird

When I finished those couple chapters in To Kill a Mockingbird, I was really surprised. I was not expecting the narrater to be a little girl barely starting 1st grade. When I heard people talking about it, and heard the title I was picturing something more serious. So far this little girl has just been describing different people and children that live in their small town of Maycomb. She seems very intellegent for her age but also has a hard time grasping commen manners or courtesies. I wasent that impressed but maybe I just need to read more of it.

Soo yeah ...

This weekend was really relaxing. Thursday night I saw Quarantine. Man that was the scariest movie I have seen in a VERY long time. I couldnt fall asleep that night because my stupied brain would play mind tricks on me ad make me think a crazy killer was in my house trying to kill me! But then the rest of the weekend I got to hangout with some new people and just rest which was good. Im excitied for school tomorrow though!

Eck

I feel like Im not doing as good in school anymore. I just realised that I havent been turning in as much stuff or paying attention in class and I really need to fix that. I really want to do good this year and I cant let my grades slip because its hard to get hem back up again you know? I wish I could take a break though from it all. School I mean. We get friday off thou so I guess thats enough!

With the lights on or off?

So this weekend was really fun! Friday I went to the homecoming game and couldnt even go see it because we forgot our money. But then I went back to a friends house and spent the night there. Saturday was the day of homecoming! I had so much fun there. I thought it was really weird to go and see how different people acted when we were really in school. Well, we were in school. Thats what made it really weird. There were people there whom you would have never guess would be dancing like that or talking to those people. I dont understand why people were acting crazy when the only thing that was different was that the lights were turned off and we were all dancing. Why do we feel like we need to present a certain look durning the day, but once the lights are out we are totally different people? Im not accusing EVERYONE of this, but it was just something I noticed in a couple people there. After the dance me and a group of people went to dennys. They give complementary refills on hot chocolate! I had no idea! And today was pretty goood. I slept for like all of it and now im going to go see The Dutchess. This weekend has gone by way too quick.

Mr Miclettes Class Today!

So today in Mr Miclettes class Kevin, Ismoneyy, Danielle, Emily and I had an amazing conversation about everything and anything! Sadly, not much work was done, but I think Mr Miclette understood that we were really involved in what we were talking about. I love when people can sit down and just talk about things that are very big in our teenage lives, without feeling scared of what someone else may think of their views on certain things or ideas they may have on a topic. I havent had a conversation like that in a while Im really glad we talked!

Changes

Do you ever feel like your just ready for something to change? Everything in your life is not terrible but not great, your just skating by. Im at that stage right now. Things or activities that made me excitied or happy before just dont quite do it for me anymore. And when something bad happens that should hurt or make me angry I just brush it away. And they just sit there, waiting for me to make them something great. But I cant think, I just feel brain dead. Everyday changes, but the feelings never do. I need something to come into my life and just be their. To just happen, sort of pull me in if that makes any sense.

Rain!

It actually rained! I love the rain so much its very tranquil. I could just sit and watch it for hours. I get lost in rain. The smell of rain hitting asfault, cars running through puddles. Its so comforting for some reason. To lay in bed and was the drops on your window sill. I would always imagine that they were racing to the bottom of the glass pannel. Theres just something so significant about rain. Im not sure what it is but its like I cant relate to rain. I just wish it would have lasted longer.