Chance

I hate it when you have so much to say to someone and you've been thinking about the perfect words to use and exactly what they did wrong. You know EXACTLY what your feeling and then when you see them, everything slips away. You cant remember anything you wanted to say to them, and the hurt that they've caused you is still there, but you just ignore it. Your so scared of what they might do or think of you you just cant say it to them. You love them to much to say it. You hope that maybe they will just figure it out. Maybe you can comfort them and make them realize what they are doing is wrong. That its painful and hurts not only themselves but you too. I should have said something I know. But I missed my chance.

The Weather

The weather always seems to match your feelings. Its crazy. Right now Im feeling like sad and confused. And its really cloudy and cold. But Im happy at the same time. But I love the kinda of weather we've been having lately.

Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving this year was there weirdest, most emotionally crazy one I have ever experienced. It made me apprieciate my family though more than I ever have, except for my dad he kind of is what made it crazy. But I love them more then anything in the world! :)

Random Blog

Im feeling really lame and dont feel like thinking of something important to blog about. But yeah, today was fairly good. It was just one of those filler days that you need to have every now and then. Tomorrow will definitely be more exciting! I hope, its going to rain so it better be good. I didnt really understand our episode of My So Called Life today. I mean I get it, but most of the time I can see how the parents and kids choices effect eachother and blah blah blah. Her mom was really confusing me. I didnt understand why she felt like she had to make her daughter to that stupid modeling thing. Like they started talking about how kids have bad images of themselves in highschool, then both of the moms were saying how they were fat and wrinkling. And Angelas mom started telling her how to improve herself, like getting ride of the zit and stuff. Isent that bad? In tv shows arent parents were supposed to be all perfect and tell there kids there beautiful and perfect and dont need to change anything about themselves? It was confusing for me.

Dont read this

I had sooooo much fun today! My face still hurts from laughing so much!( To Mr Thompson that was not a nice thing to say about my face..) But yeah, Im feeling pretty productive too, Ive caught up on all my stuff for school that I needed to do and can relax now. Oh I also have four A's! But one C+ which isent helping my GPA. Its getting so close to the end of the semester and things are getting pretty hectic. I hope everyones been able to keep up with all the work weve been getting and arent getting to stressed!

Stupid French Teacher!

If your taking french then you know what Im going through right now! Stupid Ms Barbu gave us this really bad poem to memorize all in one night. She's crazy I cant remember this whole thing in a language Im no where close to speaking yet! Plus we have to make up our own song in a couple weeks and write it our in french and present it. First of all Im not creative so I don't know what shes expecting from me and thats so embarrassing to present that in front of the whole class!

Oh mann

I forgot about all the homework I need to finish! Guess Ill be up pretty late tonight. School is starting to stress me out Im excitied about our break coming up I need it. Wow, its already close to winter break. This year has gone by so fast I still feel like its the first month into my sophomore year.

Sunday Afternoons

I love sunday afternoons when you just sit at home in your pajamas and sleep all day. I havent been able to get one of these in in awhile and Im very much enjoying it. So far today Ive done pretty much nothing except eat A LOT and sleep. Its been amazing!

Im really loving TKAM! I dont know what it is about it that I love so much. Harper Lee just shows how people act and perceive things in a weird way. I would never have thought of writing things from the point of view of a 8 year old girl. I don't know how writers do it, creating novels and poems and all that. I wish was capable of writing great literature!

Yess.

Im so excitied for school tomorro! Im not even sure why, but Im just really excited about going. I think just because last week was so boring, this one cant get any worse. Oh and I am really starting to like To Kill a Mockingbird. Its growing on me.

The Gamee

Sucked for me! I didnt even get to see who won or hangout with someone I really wanted too. I think we lost which sucks. I also noticed that there were more people on the ST side then ours. Thats something we really need to fix, I mean come on it was a home game! But yeah, my night wasent that great. Hopefully the rest of my weekend wont be like this!

So Far This Month

This month so far has not been what I was expecting it to be. Its only been 5 days into November and everything is not going the way I want it to go. Im so conflicted with how I need to act and just breaking down. But breaking down isent an option. One good thing is that Obama WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'd just like to say

That the Omen is the scariest movie ever right now! Its horrible I hate scary moves but I cant stop watching them.

I kind of like to ramble

Have you ever found a place that thats just perfect for you? Its been hidden from you for all of your life, and one day you take a different route and find it? And you think your so stupid because thats place has been there all your life, you've just never seen it. I found a place like that and I don't know how to put it in words but it was a really amazing spot. And I never would have found it if I hadn't taken a different way. As I sat there I realized that I loved it so much because it was new to me. The feeling of being at peace and the fact that know one knew where I was, it made me feel good. I want that in my life. To be at peace, you know? But I don't think thats how life works. I think you can never have that reset button that will make mistakes go away. I wish there was one but there's not. I think you need to grow with your mistakes. You don't cover them up you let them out for everyone to see because then you wont need that new place or reset button. Because then you'll be at peace with yourself. You wont need anyone else to approve of you. You'll just grow into whatever or whoever you want to be.

Our Bad Luck!

So this halloween pretty much sucked this year. I got in trouble for doing something I never even did! And then I couldnt do anything I planned on doing last night because of it. Plus when Emily and I were walking home, a black cat ran past us and over to an open ladder. What is that! Thats just like saying that we were in for a horrible day.